forget hinges stay on the fringes is what Dr. Seuss would say

there are a couple things that get to me in this city (NY)

1. People who think they are old.

2. People who love fluff talk (I.E- School, work or anything that aggravates the senses)

3. People who do not dream anymore.

It irks me to think that people my age and slightly above consider themselves old. Shit if you do not think for one second that Old John Wrinkle Dick wouldn’t trade places with you so he can get his fuck on you are an intense dumbass. 🙂 I mean why do we fear aging and not embrace it in American culture?

We are meant to grow old and beautiful.

But shit why talk about deeper issues when somebody always wants to touch on the superficial shit in life.

Have you ever found yourself listening to someone and zoning the fuck out because the conversation is always about the same dumb shit.

You know you do not give a fuck what I plan to do with a college degree.

So please just ask me if I enjoy light bondage or some shit LMAO

Lastly something that depresses me to the utmost is people who forget to dream.

People here get wrapped up in school, work, their business, kids, who the fuck knows.

They become their professions, their responsibilities and all that fun shit.

But if they only knew that dreams can never be tarnished by others they would smile more.

We all wear masks but when we dream the masks we wear are truly different sides of us

as we walk through the door with no hinges to

sit atop the wall of the fringes.



fuck swag

Okay I have not posted in a while. For good reason to. I have been able to live my life on excellent terms.

I am broke, no job , and a veteran.

You would think it was a sad story but it isn’t.

The only reason is because I finally figured out that who I am is a work in progress.

I see things differently than I did before and after the war.

Pessimism is replaced by optimism. Optimism ends up being shitty too and I become a realist.

And suddenly all these traits clash and make an imperfect man.

A man with flaws, insecurities, confidence, volatility, humility and everything else.

The best thing about getting older despite what images of “perfection” we are bombarded with is that

every year I feel more and more happy.

Knowledge truly is what sets us humans apart from any species in human existence.

You are reading this and do not even realize that to accomplish this task you are light years ahead of lost generations.

My grandma was illiterate. But she learned as hard as it was to read. Although I can never see her breaking down

some academic textbooks she still had the will to learn.

If this post is random its because I am.

What is even weirder is that

You are just like me

and its just fine.

Lesson: No Lesson 

A word on Jealousy or how not to compare yourself to anyone

Here is the story:

My best friend had trouble with women. Specifically he was paralyzed when it came to initial conversations. After talking to him and being out in the world he learns how to get passed this. And now I barely see the guy.

I was supposed to be happy for him but for an odd reason I felt a tad bit sour.

Why? this was my best friend and now he finally achieved a sustainable amount of success in his dating life.

But I realized nothing was his fault it was just my inner insecurities that proved fatal.

I questioned why I wasn’t 6 feet tall with blue eyes and it tore me up for a while.

When we would talk to women I would see them look at him as though I were an invisible brown boy and it is because of those insecurities that made me utterly unattractive.

(Part of the reason is that I was raised to believe that being Caucasian was to be beautiful, heavy shit huh lol)

But after analyzing myself I realized I could not change myself physically.

The only control I had was that of my own mind.

It is absolutely pointless to compare yourself to another being but in America it is hard to do.

We tend to put more emphasis on people who occupy the top tier of the socioeconomic rung.

No one really takes into account what kind of character and personality someone has.

Now that I can gather the facts the jealousy has faded but never do I want to be a man that constantly obsesses over comparisons to other men.

If you are living, breathing, thinking or moving you are indeed one of the lucky ones.

Jealousy is okay but shitting on yourself for things outta your control is not healthy.


Lesson: Your you if that is not enough for everyone no worries just enjoy the some who know.

Deep Conversation or How To Charm Like Titans

There is something great communicators have that us common folks can learn.

It is simply to draw people in with deep conversations.

It is a stark difference from what we think is a conversation: For example

Sheldon: Oh hey

You: Hi

Sheldon: How’s school going?

You: (In your head contemplating how to execute your existence)

That is a mundane conversation and is so boring.

Who will even remember you for something like that.

And to think most conversations are just like that.

Which is very good because when you do bring deep conversation to the table you will dare I say

become the most interesting man (or woman) in the world.

Here is a list of ways to summon a deep conversation from within:

1. Make sure it is a topic that really has no definite answer. Like speaking about the cosmos.

2. Offer something enlightining but say it in a way that does not make you seem like a know it all. For instance offer a bit of history up for verbal dissection with your hungry friends.

3. Stray away from hot button issues, work related stuff, school related stuff or anything that you know you would fall asleep listening to yourself.

When you take the time to delve into a new world with someone an interesting thing happens.



Lesson: Stop talking about stupid shit and really get to another level.

Embrace difference

You ever felt alone?

Alone in a sense where no one really can comprehend the ideas you possess.

Where even the oddballs think of you as weird.

It can be very difficult moving away from the sea of commoners.

We work a whole life in America just to be able to retire.

But this is clearly not something readily available to us.

This is truly a fast paced nation and those who cannot embrace technology wither away in


There is really no aim in this post but to make you question certain things.

It is easy to tell people what to do but when you can feel as they do then you are truly empathetic.

I do not know if social networking brings us closer but today I will have a conversation about the cosmos.

How about you?